So as you all know I will not be continuing with Law. For some that is a shock, for others it is an admirable move (since it doesn't suit my personality) while some people still think I am without a degree and still trying to find my feet. No, sorry, you are wrong. I already have a degree, I just feel that I need to add to it so I have more career options and opportunities.
Lately people have been more judgmental, and quite openly too. They will often say, "but weren't you doing something else?" or "what about the time you were doing Psychology? Didn't you want to be a Psychologist?" No, actually not. If you really knew me and took the time to get to know me and listen to me you would know that it was a filler course due to credits Stellenbosch would not accept from UCT, also the reason why my undergrad was extended by a year. I could've chosen pretty much anything, and Linguistics and Psychology were what I chose. Why not? Those subjects were very interesting and I learnt a lot of cool things, just like I am with Law. But I am still not in love with Law, it is still not my passion. Just like Psychology will never be my passion. Neither will every aspect of Linguistics, but I still love Neurolinguistics and how language develops in babies and young children. I do not feel that there is anything wrong with me adding more to what I already know. It helps me grow and makes for interesting dinner party conversation.
I know dropping out is bad and frowned upon, but since having more time on my hands, something amazing has happened. Since starting the second semester and deciding to drop out at the end of the year, I have started reading again. I have reignited my love for literature. It feels good, it makes my soul happy and also makes me realise that Education and teaching a subject I love is a far better option than being stuck in a rut. Law would do that to me, even if I tried everything in my power to not let that happen. It happened this year when my hair fell out, when I had insomnia, when I was always on the verge of tears. So yes, I may seem like I am indecisive, selfish and a bit of a brat. But I think choosing happiness over depression is a good call, on my part.
And I still bow down to those who are doing Law and loving it. You don't realise how brave you are.
Lisa-Marie
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